Grey

I feeling sad, feeling blue, feeling down & feeling emo.
Suddenly, all these feelings overwhelmed me.
I was thinking to myself all these emotions are just...
A phase happening at this moment, nothing much.
But is this just a sudden out blast of emotional?
Wondering, thinking & reflecting... No. The answer is No.
Empty, is emptiness, the emptiness within me.
This strong emotion of emptiness that always inside me.
Was i hiding from it and not willing to face this?
This emptiness, loneliness, this dark side of me.
These are all part of me, who i am, i accept and embrace it.
Is just that i'm good at being the happy, go-lucky & cheerful me.
I prefer the brighter me, is more... more... more... ... ...
I dunno, i dunno what to say, how to sort this out.
Maybe, perhaps, is too complex and deep to say in words.
Words are merely words, can't be exactly translate to thoughts.
Translate to my thoughts and feelings that i deep down feel.
In simple terms, i not good at showing the dark side of me.
The sadness, the tears, the loneliness, the helpless & the emptiness.
This side of me is hideaway from all & i keep to myself.
The darkness that embrace me, that i not willing to release out.
All these emotions that i lockout within me, feelings i hold on to.